I beat myself up over things I can’t control. To a point where I physically and mentally feel unworthy of well, anything. I can be keeping myself busy and it’ll all still be there, in the back of my mind, taunting me. It could be that I made a bad pass, didn’t sell enough, or even other peoples issues. There are many times where I’ve given up on myself, only to be picked up by the people closest to me.
I often look at pictures to feel better. Days where my mind decided to take a break from itself, to let me have peace. It feels weird and unnatural, but I know those days can happen. Those days where I can feel happiness, can happen. And I wait patiently for those days to come again.