My efforts are belittled, as I am told that my actions are not righteous. My actions are not righteous, as I have struggled with forbidden desires and a lax nature. But I am trying. I want to change the way I care about certain things and situations. I want to strive to become easy going, but not lazy. I want to repent for the sins that I have committed, rather than make excuses for them. The first step of change is through baby steps, whether its a centimeter, inch, or a whole foot. Building under each different movement you make in order to not fall back into old habits. But I feel like my change is unwanted. No one wants to try to see a person who wants to change in a different light. My mistakes and sins make me, but they do not make the person I want to be. It does not give another an excuse to shut me down from my forward progress, when all I want to be is a betterment to society, or even community, There is a change I ache to make in myself, and it would be easier if the people around me would show support rather than dissuade my efforts.